Well that's what it feels like anyway. On the inside
I’m dying. I want to go back to my seat, my palms are sweating. But the strange
thing is I am smiling. I need to tell myself everyone is doing it and they are
fine. But then again if they jumped off a cliff and lived then I can go ahead
and jump. Right? So it makes me believe that what if I stutter, forget what I
am going to say or worse throw up or pass out? No thanks Teachers I think I
would rather take that F. But where is that going to take me? I know that I have
to get it done. I need the grade and I can't just go jump in front of a moving
car! Really Jessica? You can handle spiders and living in a third world country
but presenting? So putting my big girl pants on and walked up to the front of
the class and presented.
I opened my mouth and blurred my eyes, anything to
not see the eyes on me. I relaxed and I talked. I loved the topic anyway. Peter
Elbow knew is stuff. So I just thought how about I think that I’m telling my
friends about this writing process. And it worked. Most of all of third period
are my friends anyway. So breathe Jessica. Talk and don’t forget. Soon enough
it was over. That simple. I can now smile and forget. My terror is done with. I
know why it was so simple, the audience. It has always been them. I know the
topic, I know the words but why must they scary me so much? I have always had
this problem. While presenting has never stopped me, I always get anxious. But
being a senior, I have improved so much. I can have a smile on my face without
faking it so much, and I can speak in continues sentences. While I have gotten
better, it still terrifies me. I know I’m not the only one but while someone
else is up there we can tell when they are shaking or they are pros. Ad it
terrifies to know that they know about me to. This does not help me when I’m up
there. Presenting Peter Elbow was easier than what I have to do in other
classes. It satisfies me when I know that I am not the only one but wish I wasn’t
one.
Trust me you weren't the only sweating puddles in front of the class. The peter elbow presentation can also helps us with oral presentations in the future so its a good thing Ms.fletcher is making us do it this. Its bitter Sweet.
ReplyDeleteJessica this is a good article because people can relate to your situation. When I presented i was really nervous because i felt like everyone else presentation was really good and i needed to prove that I can be that good like the others. I don't like speaking in front of clouds because when I start to present i get brain farts. This presentation for peter elbow wasnt that bad but you still get that feeling of nervousness and sweaty palms :(
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